Feelings--We all Have Them

  Feelings, so many of them. We have anger, sorrow, hatred, love, compassion, and others that I could never imagine! When you stop to think about it, humans are fairly complex animals. Not to mention the fact that each one is totally different from the next, and you have a fairly messy species!

    I know a person, let me rephrase that. I MET a person a few months ago on-line. "Strange" is a good start for describing this person, albeit the understatement of the century! Eccentric, quirky, weird, these are good words to use also. But, hidden behind all of that junk is a bright, intelligent(when they want to be), person.

  Now, some of the other people that I have met on-line don't like this other person. For the sake of clarity, this person will be known as "Z". Z has made LOTS of people VERY MAD, and, at times, has caused even a benevolent soul like myself(stop that giggling!), to just go outside and throw things. Or worse! But, through everything, I never gave up on Z. I have always advocated that Z needs professional help. I can only suggest this to Z, I cannot make Z go.

    Now, as for my other friends who also know Z. They gave up on Z. I really can't blame them. Z is VERY stubborn, and Z likes to change their identity on the 'net all of the time. Then, Z will proceed to piss people off by insulting them. I feel bad for Z, but I feel worse for my other friends. Why? You shall soon see.

     It has never really been a secret that I am constantly trying to help Z. I don't sneak around to do things. If you ask, then I will tell you up front. A couple of my friends won't even return my e-mails right now, and it has to do with Z. I can't understand this. Had one of them been in this situation, would they have wanted me to give up on them? What kind of person would do that??  I am not that person, I can't afford to be. I have done far too much wrong in my life that I am trying to make up for!

    Z does LOTS of things wrong, there is NO QUESTION of that. But to just walk away, and side with everyone else? All Z ever wanted was a little attention. We are ALL guilty of that at times. I have always listened to my other friends' problems. I have offered any advice I thought would help. I don't like just "giving up" on someone. Even a lost cause.

    I am truly sorry, friends, but I refuse to just walk away from someone who obviously needs help in their life(Z). What if it were you, and all you could see was my back as I walked away? Would you think so highly of me then? Would you think of me as "noble"? I think not.

    This is taking far too many words to say something VERY simple. I have LOTS of friends, and I enjoy them ALL. Quirky, weird, strange, goofy, idiotic, whatever. It's what makes them ALL just WHO they are!!! Besides, if you KNOW me, then you know that I always root for the under-dog!!!