Another Day

Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow.

 

Holla' If You Hear Me!!!

Why?

In the heading it asks what I am hearing. Usually it is music. Not lately. I am still pissed off at my ol' lady. All she had to say was "no". One simple fuckin' word! One tiny little word, but she couldn't say it! I am mad beyond reason, beyond all reason of a normal person.

 

       I thought I could put this behind me and carry on. Well, it isn't that easy. How in the world do you forget something like that? I gave this damn woman 25 years of my life. I was more faithful than a dog, and I get kicked in the nuts for all of my trouble! I want my life back. I want back the years I wasted with her just to have her do this to me.

 

      Holla' If You Hear Me!!!

Bowflex Results

Well, here we are, more or less six weeks from the arrival of my Bowflex. Time for some results, huh? Keeping in mind that I am not able to do the twenty minute workout everyday, but I DO workout anyway, here are the results; oh yeah, keep in mind that I was also in the hospital for a week, ok? Chest, about the same, some nominal growth; arms, I added about one quarter inch to both biceps. weight? Well, according to my doc, I lost five(5) pounds! There is also another advantage to having the machine...actually there are two more reasons for keeping it. One, my back doesn't hurt as much, if at all, like it did before. Secondly, my blood-sugar levels are finally stabilized! My 14 day averages have been well within the norms...138 to 147!

 

          I see no reason to question the results that the people at Bowflex claim. It certainly worked for me, and I will most definitely continue with my regimen. You might also like to know that I have increased the weight and number of reps that I do with all of the exercises. I will continue to bring those numbers up. I will also continue to bring you the results. This thing works, folks, it really does! And I am not paid to say that...pssst, is anyone from Bowflex looking? LOL Hey, that's it for me, I am out!

 

   :-) Holla' If You Hear Me!!! :-)

No Takers?

So, no takers on my theories about the ancient Egyptians? Hmmm, I would have thought some "brainiac" out there would want  to tell me just what a crackpot I am. Well then, some of my theories must be right on the money! I am totally shocked by the lack of argument over this subject...I think I see the word "genius" in my future???

 

:-) Holla' If You Hear Me!!! :-)

Could it Really be Done?

 I would like to pose a theory that I have been working on for a couple of years. I have always made a study,(unofficial, of course), of the Egyptian way of life. You know, the pyramids, mummies, whatever. The lives of the ancients. One thing I think the scientists have missed...the counter-weighted crane.

 

       I keep hearing scientists saying that they used ramps to haul up those large stones for the pyramids, but that they have never found proof of that theory. I have seen some of those ramps that they propose that the Egyptians might have used. No way, man. Some of those ramps would take far more manpower than they had at the time. I mean, come on, a ramp as big as the pyramid that they were building? Or, even worse, ramps that actually encircled the entire pyramid? Fuck that!

 

         How can they believe that the same people who figured out complex mathematical equations wouldn't know about the counter-weighted crane? It fits right in! They had to know about levers and fulcrums. There isn't anyway that they didn't know. They would have figured it out through the math that they already knew. It is as simple as this... you have a set amount of weight counter-balanced with a greater amount of weight, and a fulcrum between the two. When a downward force is applied to the greater weight, the smaller weight is lifted...plain and simple.

 

           Let's say that they never did figure that one out...just for the sake of argument. What about pulleys? Pulleys can multiply the force applied by many times. If they did build those time-wasting ramps, it only serves their best interests to use pulleys on them to drag the heavy stones. Or, what about this one...what about no pulleys, just large capstans on the tops of those same ramps? A capstan is simply a very large post that ropes are pulled around, thereby giving you a small amount of force on a load. Not much, but at least more than a straight pull.

 

           Forget all of that for a minute. Try this one on for size. How about the large capstan, but a large spool fits over it, with spokes on the outside, and men turning it, taking up the slack rope on the large spool, with a simple ratcheting mechanism to hold the load? I have never heard a single scientist come up with any of these theories. I am not that smart; believe me, I know! Isn't it strange that I could come up with these things, and ancient Egyptians couldn't? It sure beats the hell out of the theory that some fuckin' Aliens built the pyramids! Give me a holler about your ideas...hell, someone call MIT, I think I might just be Alumni material!!!!

 

:-)Holla' If You Hear Me!!!:-)

How Well Are We Doing?

Now then, having said all of that, let us move on to something else. I hope that I am finished with that subject. She fucked me over, so it is time to get over it, and to get over her. I now know that she is not what I thought she was, and after this, she will never be the same person. Too bad for her; she was wrong, not me.

 

         So, I have something I would like to bring to your attention. I keep hearing people say that the terrorists have not won, that we go on. Ummm, excuse me, but they DID win. As soon as they blew up those buildings in NYC, they won. Go into ANY airport in the U.S.A. If you so much as sneeze, they will shut the place down for hours at a time, due to a "Terrorist Threat". It happens nearly every day. Back on Sept. 11, 2001, when the FFA suspended ALL air traffic, the terrorists won. I was amused to see that CNN was reporting that flights were taking place about three weeks BEFORE anything was flying!

 

        You see, Memphis, Tenn. has a very large airport. EVERY flight that goes into there can be seen from my house. And believe me when I say that when CNN was reporting that there were flights in the USA, they were lying. If I look to a certain part of the sky, I can see flights that go to Florida, Texas, and any points north. We saw nothing in the skies for many weeks. Longer than what was reported. So, yes, the terrorists did indeed win.

 

        But, let's not be too hasty here. I think there was a little home-brewed terrorism going on thanks to the gov't. Remember the Anthrax attacks? That was the work of some "black ops" people in the gov't. Why? To keep the public in a constant state of fear. Why? So all of congress would turn over COMPLETE POWER to George Bush. What? You don't believe me? Fear not, for I am not the only one who thinks like that. I believe that time will tell the truth. Or, maybe not. Hell, someone got away with killing John Kennedy(wink, wink, L.B.J.). Sleep well, but sleep lightly, because the fangs of the "wolf" could be at your throat next...

 

Holla' If You Hear Me!!!

...And Still I Go On

 I will say this much...I still hurt. Even as hard as I am, I do have feelings. A good friend wrote to me asking me to "let someone in", because of my "tough-guy" veneer. Well, I did let someone in 25 years ago. We all know just how that went. No, I refuse to let anyone in again. This will never happen to me again. I now hate everyone and everything. There is no happiness left in the world. You think I was isolated before? As the saying goes, "You ain't seen nothing yet". As far as I am concerned, women are pure evil.

 

        All my life, some fuckin' woman has tried to hurt me, starting with my mom, and now this. No More! I don't care if some of you stop reading here because you are female. Life sucks, then you get fucked over by the only person that you trust. Well, I trust no one now. I say "Fuck the world", I don't need anyone to get along. I got along just fine before I met her. She says she is sorry, sure, after the fact! She had every intention of hurting me as badly as she could. It worked. It worked beyond her wildest dreams.

 

    "Open up" is the LAST fucking thing I will ever do again. Never. This shit has happened to me for the last time! At least with another man, I know what is up. Not so with back-stabbing, lying, devious, conniving, evil fucking women!

About The Last Entry

That last entry was sent to me by one of my real Dad's Sisters...which would make her my Auntie. I would like to say something to her right here in public...thanks for being there for me. And not just you, but others who come here and try to give me support in this horrible time in my maybe short life.

 

       I feel that I am letting some of you down, as I am still contemplating doing away with myself. I thought I could let this thing go, but I can't. She has destroyed everything I ever believed in. I just can't live with that...I don't know what else to say. I cannot continue on this path in life. The cliff is in front of me, I only need to walk forward into oblivion...it's not that hard.  I have nothing left...what I loved more than anything has been defiled. I simply cannot bring myself to touch her, and I just don't understand it.

 

       Do I still love her? How can I be sure? How can I know? Death is far more preferable to this. Our marriage has been dishonored. All I have is my word, and my Honor. I no longer have that Honor. Why? Why did this have to happen? What is wrong with me? Why is this so hard for me? Fuck, I have fought through much worse than this. Hell, most of my life has been a struggle. Why is this any different? I just cannot live with this dishonor.

 

       I feel like I am constantly slipping further into the darkness that awaits. I have no fear of dying...I got over that a long time ago. So she took my guns and sold them...I can still cut my wrists open, and let the darkness envelope me. I will have saved my Honor, not much else, but I will have that.

The Days Go On

 

1. How Do You Catch a Unique Rabbit?
Unique Up On It.
2. How Do You Catch a Tame Rabbit?
Tame Way.
3. How Do Crazy People Go Through The Forest?
They Take The Psycho Path
4. How Do You Get Holy Water?
You Boil The Hell Out Of It.
5. What Do Fish Say When They Hit a Concrete Wall?
Dam!
6. What Do Eskimos Get From Sitting On The Ice too Long?
Polaroids
7. What Do You Call a Boomerang That Doesn't work?
A Stick
8. What Do You Call Cheese That Isn't Yours?
Nacho Cheese.
9. What Do You Call Santa's Helpers?
Subordinate Clauses.
10. What Do You Call Four Bullfighters In Quicksand?
Quattro Sinko..
11. What Do You Get From a Pampered Cow?
Spoiled Milk.
12. What Do You Get When You Cross a Snowman With a Vampire?
Frostbite.
13. What Lies At The Bottom Of The Ocean And Twitches?

A Nervous Wreck.
14. What's The Difference Between Roast Beef And Pea Soup?
Anyone Can Roast Beef.
15. Where Do You Find a Dog With No Legs?
Right Where You Left Him.
16. Why Do Gorillas Have Big Nostrils?
Because They Have Big Fingers.
17. Why Don't Blind People Like To Sky Dive?
Because It Scares The Dog.
18. What Kind Of Coffee Was Served On The Titanic?
Sanka.
19. What Is The Difference Between a Harley And a Hoover?!
The Location Of The Dirt Bag.
20. Why Did Pilgrims' Pants Always Fall Down?
Because They Wore Their Belt Buckle On Their Hat.
21. What's The Difference Between a Bad Golfer And a Bad Skydiver?
A Bad Golfer Goes, Whack, Dang!
A Bad Skydiver Goes Dang! Whack.
22. How Are a Texas Tornado And a Tennessee Divorce The Same? !
Somebody's Gonna Lose A Trailer

The Strangest Emotion of them All

 Love is the strangest emotion of them all. We feel anger, joy, happiness, and sadness for a reason. We feel love for no reason at all. A fleeting emotion, it can occur with the slightest look, glance, smile, or any movement at all, or any thought or spoken word.

 

      Those things can just as quickly cancel out love. It can go either way. Love has very few masters, and legions of fools. Hard men can crumble in it's wake. I have seen hard fightin' men go down without so much as a last gasp, into the grips of love. I have also seen those same hard men completely crushed by love.

 

        I am in the number of fools in love. So pissed-off at someone that I could just completely snap, but not wanting to lose that person. My heart lives in the dark blackness that only the true love for another can bring in the wake of a tragedy...my heart aches from deep within. The other person can never realize just what damage they have wrought. They could never imagine the deep despair that I feel at this time.

 

      I will make it through this...I have to. All of my life I have been disappointed...this is just another test to see just how much I can take. Fine, I will survive this, a little more jaded than before, but with experience, nonetheless. I will go on, I will still love, but that love will be different now...harder, and more skeptical of things. Quicker to catch on to the lies, and to know when something is going on that shouldn't be.

 

            :-) Holla' If You Hear Me!!! :-)

Others Like Me

 I finally found someone, who, like me, gets fed up with the AOL service!  Go get 'em, girl!

 

        :-) Holla' If You Hear Me!!! :-)

Bad Things

 As long as I am here, I should warn those of you with kids about something I learned of recently. If your kids have a PSP(Play Station Portable), they can download things from the internet. Music, movies, games, and PORNOGRAPHY! That's right, PORNO. It never occured to me to do this, but it seems that kids can do it. You might just want to check up on "junior" once in awhile.

"Being"

  I think, therefore I am. I feel, therefore I am a fool.