Friday, June 22, 2012

Having a Low Day

Hi, guys and girls, the old dragonmaster is back once again! I have a love for Dragons that stretches as far back as my early childhood. I used to make my mom put on Peter Paul and Mary singing "Puff the Magic Dragon" every damn night when I went to bed! Even though my mother was afflicted with a mental illness, there were some good times every now and then.

          I, unfortunately, inherited that same mental illness. I am Bi-Polar, and suffer from depression. I don't think I have ever posted it that plainly here before. So, there it is...the eight hundred pound gorilla in the room! Sometimes it is hard to overlook it; sometimes I can get by. Sometimes not. Imagine a large dump truck parked on your chest...that is how it feels sometimes. Oh! I haven't even mentioned the panic attacks that spring up at the worst times!!!

             Add to the fact that I live in Mississippi. The WORST STATE for trying to get help with a mental illness. Aside from other "normal" people making fun of you and laughing at what is arguably a real problem! I just say "fuck 'em". They will never know the pain in my heart, and the voices in my head telling me to harm them! I can go from a slow boil to a seething rage in an instant. I just want to destroy everything in sight. Imagine trying to control that with no help. Ok, enough crying about something that cannot be fixed. You guys and girls keep your shit together...maybe tomorrow will be better!

                                                       Holla' If You Hear Me!!!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

What are We?

What are we? We are living, breathing organisms. But what about the whole Universe? Could it actually be just a very complex living organism? A single entity, a life force existing solely on it's own? I just think about these things from time to time. Maybe I am wrong about the whole deal...but what if I am right? What if the Universe IS just a single, living entity? Food for thought, huh?

Friday, June 8, 2012

Good Day to You

Well, I am back, and not with much to say. The days are quiet, and kind of boring. I will continue to publish here, even though I am the only one still reading here!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Long Time No See!

Well, it is several months into the future...Christmas went off without a hitch, and the baby is now running everywhere! I haven't been here because of Facebook. I have wasted a lot of time there. I don't post there, I just read what others post, and play a couple of the games! Vinny and Roze had a great year at school. Roze took home six awards for exellence, and Vinny took home five. He says this is the last time his sister beats him! He vows to get more awards next year. I am pulling for him. he has finally settled down to the work it takes to excell in school.

          Otherwise, things are quiet around here. Take care, and I will try to not take so long getting back here.