Have you seen the ads on tv where people say that they have had a great idea, and sent it to Microsoft, and "bingo"! Their idea was magically transposed into Windows 7? Have you seen this shit? I have an idea for Microsoft, and Mr. Bill Gates...give everyone who has a copy of your shitty operating systen known as Windows Vista a FREE, LICENSED, copy of the newer, better, Windows 7! And apologize for loading our new computers with crap!

"Hi, I'm a pc, and this is my idea!"

Six Years of Freedom

Today marks six years without smoking! I never thought it would last this long, especially after the things my wife has done to me over that time! I am glad that I no longer smoke, that is for sure. I will gladly take my six years, and not look back!

My Sacrifice

...Please come here, I think I'm falling, holding onto all that I think is safe. It seems I found the road to nowhere, and I'm trying to escape! I yelled back when I heard thunder, but I'm down to one last breath, and with it let me say...Hold me now, I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking, maybe six feet ain't so far down.

..........From the "Weathered" Album by Creed.

Two Icons Lost

This has been one of the worst weeks in a long time. We lost what can only be called two American Icons this past week. Farrah Fawcet and Micheal Jackson. They are gone far too quickly. If you are wondering, yes, I used to have a poster of Farrah, and I also listened to Micheal's music at one time.

So many people will not mourn these two superstars, they will get caught up in the greed of making money off of these two persons. I humbly ask all of my readers to remember one thing....these were PEOPLE first, with feelings. Now they are gone, please show some respect. My wife recieved some jokes about Micheal jackson on her cell phone, and I just didn't find them funny. I might have laughed had he not been dead, I guess.

In my time here on this little rock we call home, I have seen many people die. Some I have mourned in my own way, and others I figured we were better off without. Now, why did I say that? Well, some people are given a lifetime to do good, and they just never get it right, whether by choice, or by design. I have spent the first half of my life being an asshole. I have devoted the last 20 years trying to do right by people, even if it is people that I don't know. I feel that we touch so many lives around us that we should be careful of our actions, lest we injure or harm someone without our knowledge.

Have a great weekend, and please, be nice to each other....

:) Holla' If You Hear Me!!! :)

Love, the Timeless Heartache

Love....what is it? An emotion? A feeling? A state of mind? A lasting, or fleeting, thing? A problem to be solved? Something that science can put down to a couple of chemical interactions? No, love is a state of the heart, that small, constantly beating muscle in our chests. The ONE ORGAN that we cannot be without, and it is susceptible to be affected by LOVE...how convienent!

I was in love once, with a beautiful person. Not anymore. I have learned a valuable lesson, one that I already knew, but let go of. Love is bullshit! Love is for fools and incompetents! Love will stomp all over your heart, and leave it broken and bloodied! I used to worship a certain person in my life, untill they hurt me.

Now, there is NO FORGIVENESS for that person. To rip out my heart in that manner, then act like it was nothing! To constantly tell me to "just get over it". I can't! I devoted my heart and soul, (if I have one), to this person. I will never love anyone like that again, NEVER! I have learned that people are full of shit, and no one is to be trusted!

Here I Am Again

What is happening? I am still around, so get used to it. Not much to say, the depression is still weighing heavy on my mind, so things are a little slow at the moment. I just can't seem to put together too many thoughts at this time. I hope all of you are fine out there. I am also about to change my ideals about writing and drinking. Mostly about drinking, then writing here! The drink seems to be the only thing to bring happiness, or any relief, at this point in time. Yeah, I know all of the old sayings..."I don't NEED to drink, I WANT to drink". And all of that bullshit! I fear I will never recover from the shit that my wife pulled...I still hate her for that. Cutting my throat would have been better...at least I wouldn't have to live with this shit! I should have done something to her for payback!