"Bad" Language

 OK, some "ground rules" for understanding me. First, and foremost--my brain functions at full throttle only!! That means that EVERYTHING is in the FRONT of my brain, and ALL of it is on a continous loop---a high-speed loop, at that! Secondly, always, let me repeat that, ALWAYS, look at the "mood" at the top of the page when reading here. It can help you to gauge my mood---somewhat---some of the time---maybe.

   Now, to the question I get asked all the time; "Oh great Dragon Master, why do you use such "bad" language at times"?  "Could you be just a crusty old bastard who LIKES to shock us"??  Could be!

  But, sorry, that is not the idea behind my "bad" words. (ok, sometimes, it IS the reason!!LOL)  But, as you might have guessed, I am trying to convey EMOTIONS to people out there. I do not have the vocabulary of a British scholar. I, for the most part, am un-educated. Besides, if I said that a person was of "questionable parentage", would you know that I had just called that person a son-of-a-bitch?? I think not. How about instead of calling a female a 'witch', I simply said that "she keeps her big pot boiling all the time". Also, it is far too much writing!! (I am basically lazy, too).

  There is also another aspect to this; I am simply "Joe Everybody".  I drink liquor straight from the bottle, NOT cut crystal. If the bottle keeps it from spilling in the store, then it must be good enough for me!! So, your beer comes in a can?? What the hell you think that little hole in the top is for?? Now you get it? I hope so.

   Question for YOU, the viewers at home; Have you ever met someone who was just an "Asshole"? I mean a complete ASSHOLE?? Not just a 'jerk'...an asshole. Now, give me a word that describes an asshole BETTER than Asshole?? Sphincter Sucker?? It just isn't the same.

 Sometimes, these words are the ONLY way that I can convey to you the thoughts, emotions, or just plain stupidity of persons in the world. If anyone is offended by these words, then turn off that expensive computer, and get out of your parent's den; I think I hear them pulling up right......NOW!!

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  "The only difference between 'Genius' and insanity is that 'Genius' has limits"!!!

By now, I have no doubt that most of my children out there have guessed that a couple of my "friends" have been riding me fairly hard lately. That would be partly my fault---I was stupid enough to think someone could be an actual FRIEND!!! From now on, "if you ain't a brother, you're just 'another' ".

    BOTH have written to me in the past few days....odd thing is, if you hold up both letters, it is like looking in a mirror!! They both are nearly the same! I guess my number just came up on their "who should we fuck with this week" list. Well, I don't need this crap!

   One of them even wrote to me saying I was "trashing" them on MY SITE. OK, first of all, this is NOT my site; this site belongs to AOl.com. As they will tell you, AOL is NOT responsible for content, as it is the personal thoughts and opinions of members. They do, however, have certain guidelines, and standards that MUST be adhered to. Besides, I have NOT trashed you here. If I trash you, you will CERTAINLY KNOW IT!!  Believe me.

  Now, as far as both of you telling me WHO I can associate with----fogeddaboutit!!! Get over yourselves! Who cares if I have a little bit of fun? Yeah, it was cool with both of you for a bit, but when you jump in my face with accusations, then say you were wrong, the damage was already done!!

 Get your facts straight BEFORE you jump on someone! Once the both of you jumped, you HAD to stand behind it. That's cool, that part is only business, not personal. But, the initial accusations were wrong. You even took a simple joke that I have made frequently, and turned it into something sinister???? What the hell was that about??

My initial response was to tell both of you to just "FUCK OFF". But, I have always had MORE RESPECT for the both of you than to do that. So, I won't. What I WILL say is this, and remember it well----

 THIS SUBJECT IS NOW CLOSED FOR BOTH OF YOU! ANY FURTHER CORRESPONDENCE ON THIS MATTER WILL BE DELETED. IF YOU CONTINUE TO BOTHER ME WITH THIS TRIVIAL BULLSHIT, YOU WILL BE DELETED. I WILL SIMPLY WIPE OUT ALL INFO I HAVE ON BOTH OF YOU, AND ALL MAIL WILL BE DELETED!!!!

 I simply WILL NOT be "bullied" into submission by so-called friends. If either of you thought I would hang my head, and shuffle my feet, you were very mistaken. Run and tell who you must, but the person who keeps "pumping" the both of you is having the BIGGEST laugh!!

Poem? Truth? Warning??

Leave me alone, you are cramping my style,

Go away, I've had my fill of you for awhile!

I don't "give in", and I don't "conform",

I am the un-assuming little box that holds the tempestuous storm.

 

I am me, and that is all that I can be,

Take it for that, and let it be!

Leave me alone, don't raise my ire,

Or you shall surely feel my fire!

 

Don't jump up, and get in my face,

Or I will have to put you in your place!

Yeah, I got your number when you walked in the door,

Now, here you come, begging for more!

 

Leave me alone, quit wasting my time,

This isn't your life, it's MINE!

I can shut myself away as I see fit,

I could care less if you "just don't get it".

 

I have said it once, and I'll say it twice---

Quit fuckin' with me,

IT'S MY LIFE!!!!

 

Now then, have we learned anything???

No Subject

 CRAP!! I guess today is one of those "down days". The worst of both worlds. Whatever the hell is wrong with me takes weird swings... one day you are up here..........

 

 

 

 

The next day, you are down here. My stereo is so loud right now that it is literally shaking the walls. It isn't enough. It's never enough on days like this. Your brain sort of does what it wants to. It tends to forget everything else, puts itself into nuetral,and floors the gas! Your mind simply screams, out of gear, for what seems like forever. Unless you have experienced this "sound", you can never imagine what it is like.

  The scary thing about this? I am beginning to like these "down days". I  feel like I can do anything, and NONE of it is good. Believe me, if you had even a tiny idea of what goes on in my head, you would know instantly what a very bad idea it is to have me in one of these "moods". Here's a little hint...."Pleased to meet you, hope you guess my name".

  Now, to see just what I can get into-----

A Quick Tribute---

  Cloud dropped by today for awhile. Very up-beat, and joking for once. But, as always, after Cloud has arrived, Squall shows up. Brooding, pensive, always dark. They have left, for now, but they will be back, they always come back. The only constant things in life. My life, anyway.

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   If you understand this, consider yourself "ELITE". If you don't, then don't worry, it is just a "game" to gauge my readers. If you DO understand, come back with a "Hell Yeah"!!!

Past Friends

  I'm Back. I have been thinking....stop laughing, it could happen! Last week I posted a page here, then took it down later---it just didn't come out right. Maybe a little harsh, or just not to the point. At least, the point that I wanted to make. Sometimes, I feel very limited by my vocabulary.....

  I will give it one more shot. I lost a friend (from the 'net) because someone ELSE said some terrible things to this friend. We will call the friend X, and the other party Z. Now, I don't mind "friends", because NO ONE EVER gets very close to me....I like it like that. But this friend thinks that they can dictate who I keep company with.

  Not good. Even my wife doesn't try that with me. I would never believe that I could dictate someone else's life. I can make suggestions, but nothing more. If someone doesn't want my advice, or chooses to not heed a warning, then what comes next is THEIR decision. I have NO REASON to become angry with them.  "To each his own destiny".

  The problem here is that the friend not only turned their back on me, but challenged me in a public forum. They justified this by saying "I did not use your name". Yeah, thanks----you left NO DOUBT about whom you were referring to! This caused several other people to turn their backs on me, also. Thank You for that. I now KNOW, without a doubt, just WHO I can trust.

  As for "Z"?? Always there, never hating me, and NOT turning their back to me. Kind of makes you wonder, doesn't it? I made the mistake of banning "Z" from this Journal, for the sake of supposed "friends". I am working to correct that at this time. Welcome back, "Z".

  We all know that I grew up hard, blah, blah, blah..... I have since tried to soften my ways towards others, only to find that the more I change, OTHERS remain the same. Same old shit, just different names and faces.....and the world grinds on.

  At the core of this, these "friends" should remember ONE THING; The very insignificance of our existence should never be overlooked! The fact that we even lived our pathetic, mundane little lives will be completely erased within one (1) generation. Lighten up, and get over yourselves. Neither YOU or I  are THAT important. Deal with it now, and get over it. You will live MUCH HAPPIER!!

PAIN!!

Good day to you, my children. Today's entry is quick and dirty. I seem to have pulled a large muscle in my back, and am enjoying lots of pain! Who would'a known?? Anyway, have a good weekend, and I will try to find some pain-killers, or at least a lot of hard liquor!!!