Having a Low Day

Hi, guys and girls, the old dragonmaster is back once again! I have a love for Dragons that stretches as far back as my early childhood. I used to make my mom put on Peter Paul and Mary singing "Puff the Magic Dragon" every damn night when I went to bed! Even though my mother was afflicted with a mental illness, there were some good times every now and then.

          I, unfortunately, inherited that same mental illness. I am Bi-Polar, and suffer from depression. I don't think I have ever posted it that plainly here before. So, there it is...the eight hundred pound gorilla in the room! Sometimes it is hard to overlook it; sometimes I can get by. Sometimes not. Imagine a large dump truck parked on your chest...that is how it feels sometimes. Oh! I haven't even mentioned the panic attacks that spring up at the worst times!!!

             Add to the fact that I live in Mississippi. The WORST STATE for trying to get help with a mental illness. Aside from other "normal" people making fun of you and laughing at what is arguably a real problem! I just say "fuck 'em". They will never know the pain in my heart, and the voices in my head telling me to harm them! I can go from a slow boil to a seething rage in an instant. I just want to destroy everything in sight. Imagine trying to control that with no help. Ok, enough crying about something that cannot be fixed. You guys and girls keep your shit together...maybe tomorrow will be better!


                                                       Holla' If You Hear Me!!!

What are We?

What are we? We are living, breathing organisms. But what about the whole Universe? Could it actually be just a very complex living organism? A single entity, a life force existing solely on it's own? I just think about these things from time to time. Maybe I am wrong about the whole deal...but what if I am right? What if the Universe IS just a single, living entity? Food for thought, huh?

Good Day to You

Well, I am back, and not with much to say. The days are quiet, and kind of boring. I will continue to publish here, even though I am the only one still reading here!

Long Time No See!

Well, it is several months into the future...Christmas went off without a hitch, and the baby is now running everywhere! I haven't been here because of Facebook. I have wasted a lot of time there. I don't post there, I just read what others post, and play a couple of the games! Vinny and Roze had a great year at school. Roze took home six awards for exellence, and Vinny took home five. He says this is the last time his sister beats him! He vows to get more awards next year. I am pulling for him. he has finally settled down to the work it takes to excell in school.

          Otherwise, things are quiet around here. Take care, and I will try to not take so long getting back here.

A New Day

Hello, and welcome to all...both of you who still read here!!!!!!! I am happy because my new video game comes out Friday...and I pre-ordered it ahead of time. The game is "The Elder Scrolls V; Skyrim". From the tv ads I have seen, it will by far be the best in the series to date! I will be glad to have it.

My youngest daughter is living with us for right now...maybe forever. Her husband cannot seem to keep the lights on at their house. The baby cannot stay where there is no electricity! So, for now, mother and child are here. My wife cannot stand the hubby. As for me? I am not too fond of him, either. I would love to go buck wild on him for a bit. Anyway...

Not too much else to say. I seem to not be counted as "normal"...I come here with my problems, not Facebook. I like a couple of the games over there, but the rest is just a collosal waste of time. I am listening to Elton John. Isn't he Knighted? I should say "Sir" Elton John. Well, holla if you want to, or not, it's no snot out of my nose!!!!!!

Free and Easy

That's me, free and easy right now. As I sit here with my speakers filled with music, and a little hope in my heart. I have a new on-line friend, her name is "Boink"! She is a beautiful little doggy from the great nation of Canada! She(her owner) is a great personality, and I love her posts on Facebook.

I am all alone, and sort of digging it today! I have no way of knowing just WHY I am enjoying it more than usual, I just am. Things are quiet for now, and except for the music which is deafening me right now, not much is going on here in the heart of "The Dirty South". You know what people say..."American by birth, Southern by the grace of God".

Next month marks the eigth year of my beautiful friend Jean quitting smoking. We lost Jean a couple years back due to COPD. I still miss you Miss Jean, I really do! Well, time for me to go dig in my freezer for my booze! I will "see" all of you later.

The Old Dragon Master

Recent Events

...There aren't any!!! Everything is flowing smoothly. The new grandbaby is growing nicely. She is almost seven months, and can already crawl anywhere she wants to go. She is nineteen pounds in weight, and can eat whatever she wants...(within reason). My older grandchildren are doing fine in school, and otherwise. They both seem to be gifted at school.

I am about the same as before. Change seems to come slowly for me if at all. That is good, as I hate change! The days and nights are a lot cooler now, and that is a relief! We had too many days of the temperature being over 100 degrees, and the nights in the nineties! Well, enough for now, I will be back later!