On Fixations

 Nothing so lodges something in your mind more than the wish to forget it.

More Zen

Zen Sarcasm - Part Two...

12. If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.

13. Some days you're the bug; some days you're the windshield.

14. Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

15. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket.

16. A closed mouth gathers no foot.

18. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.

19. Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving.

20. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

21. Never miss a good chance to shut up.

22. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.

A Continuation---of Sorts

The world continues it's slow, grinding, forward motion. "Time and tide wait for no man". Life, sad as it is, goes on. we all just try to go along as best as we can.

Life Lessons

 

Zen Sarcasm -

1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me the hell alone.

2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and leaky tire.

3. It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.

4. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.

5. Always remember that you're unique. Just like everyone else.

6. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

7. If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.

8. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.

9. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.

10. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

11. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.

 

:-(Holla' If You Hear Me!!!:-(

Truths Revealed

Those who can make you believe absurdities can make you commit atrocities.
- Voltaire

 

 

To sin by silence when they should protest makes cowards of men.
- Abraham Lincoln

 

To believe in something, and not to live it, is dishonest.
- Mohandas K. Gandhi

Home

I am home from the hospital...the woman is still here. I know I am a fool. She says she feels bad about what she did. Yeah, she feels really bad, huh? Why didn't she feel bad when she was fucking that guy? I don't believe anything she says..........

I'm A Fool...

  My wife finally called home today. You want to hear something corny? I love her. I hate her right now, but I still love her. Twenty five years ago, I gave my life to this woman. I have tried to give her everything she wanted that was within my grasp. Twenty five years of my life, and this is how she spends it.

  There is one thing you need to understand; I am fiercely loyal. I have never played around on her...I agreed at our wedding that from that moment there was only one woman in my life. I kept it that way untill now. I have only two things in this world, my name, and my word. My name may have been given to me, but my word is my own, and I don't break it.

     One other thing about me...I will not take a life. Ever. No one gets to decide if another lives or dies. Yes, I am an old Biker, but I have never taken a life. Don't get me wrong, I can get down when a situation calls for it, but never have I needed to kill to control the scene.

     So, there it is. When she called this morning, I told her that she has to follow her heart. If I am no longer in it, then so be it. I refuse to share her with another man. I simply told her that she must choose, me or him. There is no "in-between" in this situation. My heart and soul(if there is such a thing), belong to her, but my destiny is my own. I am still around after the life I have lead because the fates think I am not finished. I think I have work to do in this part of the voyage. Thanks to all of you who responded to me in my time of need. I just need a little more time. Forgive her? No. Learn to live with it? I'm not sure, but I explained to her that I can no longer go through this with her, and I will not do this anymore.

 

          I have no idea why this woman is trying to break me, but I told her today was it. I will do this no more. The strain alone is killing me. I will not choose between her and Hell. I will simply walk away from it all. I deserve better. This crap has gone on too long. I am just too tightly wound to keep this up. I am right at the edge of just completely un-spooling.  There are times that I cannot control what I do. It is sort of like being blind...the shit just happens, and I end up seeing the aftermath. It's like I'm not there when it happens. I guess my mind takes me away from it all. I know that I am not "normal", but what the fuck am I? I feel like a raging beast at times, and I cannot stop it.

 

          Holla' If You Hear Me.