Slow Thursday

 Well, it is still early in the day here, so not much going on. My little granddaughter and my youngest daughter are playing with the cats. You know, throw the ball, and the cats destroy the house chasing it. For an animal that can be so nimble at times, they can be so opposite of that when chasing a ball. I mean, c'mon, you're a cat for goodness' sakes!! Act like one. Dogs chase balls, not cats! Actually, I can see where that comes in handy, cats will normally attack anything that moves within their field of vision.

 

          Ok, what is going on in the world? Ex-President Carter has backed off from his inital criticism of President Bush. You know the story, he(Carter) said that this administration was "the worst ever".  I hate that he backed away from that, it really hurts his credibility. Never back down when you take a stand. If you prove me wrong, fine, I will accept that, but I will not back down once I have taken a stand. If you think I am wrong, prove it, and I will step aside for you and the truth. I will concede the issue only to the truth. I like President Carter, but he really screwed the pooch on this one. The Bush administration IS the worst in history. That's right, I said it. The man couldn't find his ass if BOTH of his hands were in his back pockets! Sorry, but that is the way I see him.

 

           The man is uncouth, of barely moderate intelligence, has no sense of what is going on in the world, and is an all around ass. Get a clue, Mr. President. Buy a vowel, shit, do something to help someone. Hey, here is an idea...GET THE FUCK OUT OF IRAQ!!!!! That would be great, especially since you are there on false pretenses! Oh, yeah, while you are at it, stop the oil companies from PRICE GOUGING!! Don't tell me they aren't jacking up prices then show me on the news where they are making RECORD PROFITS!! Who the fuck believes you? Oh, that's right, the fuckin' rich assed Republicans that put your sorry ass in office! But then this is just the opinion of one pissed-off redneck....till tomorrow, folks!

 

           :)Holla' If You Hear Me!!!:)

Great Day...Monday

 So, last Friday really sucked, huh. Well, I have those days. They come and they go. I still would rather be drunk than sober. Oh well, what are you gonna do? Lay around and piss and moan, or just piss and moan? Screw it. Monday was better, and I will tell you why.

 My granddaughter just completed the first grade Monday! She ended up with one trophy for reading...264 books in a school year! She also ended the year with seven other awards  like a citzenship award, math award, honor roll award, language arts award, and I can't even remember the rest. She was so proud, and I was too. Just think, I used to run with a motorcycle gang, and now I have grandchildren that can accomplish something like this! I have been in some places where only quick thinking, and sometimes violence, were the only means of getting out alive. I just don't have the words to describe how I felt today as that tiny little girl recieved award after award, and looked into my eyes for approval...awesome, just fucking awesome! I never believed I would see anything like it! Her mother(my oldest daughter) spent the last three years of high school(10th, 11th, &12th grades), in the "Who's Who In High School" book. A feat that has never been repeated at her school as of this writing! Even the worst days are eclipsed by something like this. From my humble beginnings as a gang member, to this. That tiny little girl, her eyes wide with the fire that I used to see in me. She will grow up better than me, I have made that vow. I still have a daughter at home (15). She sort of struggles with school, but I will be right beside her, too. No child that is related to me will go through what I did growing up...never. I will always see to that.

 

          :) Holla' If You Hear Me!!!:)

Let's Party! (It's Friday)

 Damn, they (AOL) keep changing things on me. I guess some of the changes are for the better, but the choices can get rather confusing. I like things streamlined...make it smooth as possible,(and you "girls" can take that any way you want to!!!), in and out, and finished! (I seem to be full of double entendres!). Anyway, it is Friday, and I just know it's five o'clock somewhere! It sucks that I can't drink. C'mon, what's a few(12 or more) beers in an already fucked up body? I could care less if it killed me. At least the funeral procession wouldn't hold up traffic long! Just two cars, one for the casket, and one for the shovels!

 

                That's right, I could care less. I am constantly being stuck with something...to either get blood out, or to put something in me! I say "fuck it and get drunk"!!! I have had enough. I have done just about everything I wanted to do in my lifetime, and then some!  Most people fear dying, not me. Fuck it, death can come when he wants, hell, I would even get him a beer!  I say let's get a bottle or two of Tequila and tear it up! I mean get really shit-faced, see if Death shows up! I am sick and tired of fighting for another day, only to find out that something else is fucked up in my body or my life! Wait, LIFE rhymes with WIFE! Well, I see the problem now! Well, fuck it...she ain't as slick as she thinks she is. She never will be, either.

 

              What? You think I am whining? Fuck off, I haven't even BEGAN to whine! I could tell you things that would curl your hair, then straighten it out again! You have no idea what I put up with here. I think a change of scenery is about due. A change of scenery waaaaaaaay away from here. I grow tired of lies and fairy tales. Bring me Mead and Ale worthy of a king, because I deserve it! The fact that I haven't killed someone yet is a fuckin' miracle! Some people just don't know how lucky they are!!!

 

                    Holla' If You Hear Me!!!

My Anthem...

 My Anthem, believe me, it fits most days.

 

Creed - Weathered Lyrics

I lie awake on a long, dark night
I can't seem to tame my mind
Slings and arrows are killing me inside
Maybe I can't accept the life that's mine
No I can't accept the life that's mine

Simple living is my desperate cry
Been trading love with indifference yeah it suits me just fine
I try to hold on but I'm calloused to the bone
Maybe that's why I fell alone
Maybe that's why I feel so alone

Me..I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and it just won't heal

The sun shines and I can't avoid the light
I think I'm holding on to life too tight
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
Sometimes I feel like giving up
Sometimes I feel like giving up

Me...I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and it just won't heal

The day reminds me of you
The night hides your truth
The earth is a voice
Speaking to you
Take all this pride
And leave it behind
Because one day it ends
One day we die
Believe what you will
That is your right
But I choose to win
So I choose to fight
To fight

Holla' If You Hear Me!!!

Advice, Maybe? Or Just an Observation

 Here is a small tid-bit that I found on the 'net today. It could be advice for some(maybe even me), or it could just be a casual observation...I leave the decision up to you, my minions.

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"If you put a buzzard in a pen six or eight feet square and entirely open at the top, the bird, in spite of his ability to fly, will be an absolute prisoner. The reason is that a buzzard always begins a flight from the ground with a run of ten or twelve feet. Without space to run, as is his habit, he will not even attempt to fly, but will remain a prisoner for life in a small jail with no top.

The ordinary bat that flies around at night, a remarkable nimble creature in the air, cannot take off from a level place. If it is placed on the floor or flat ground, all it can do is shuffle about helplessly and, no doubt, painfully, until it reaches some slight elevation from which it can throw itself into the air. Then, at once, it takes off like a flash.

A Bumblebee if dropped into an open tumbler will be there until it dies, unless it is taken out. It never sees the means of escape at the top, but persists in trying to find some way out through the sides near the bottom. It will seek a way where none exists, until it completely destroys itself.

In many ways, there are lots of people like the buzzard, the bat and the bee. They are struggling about with all their problems and frustrations, not realizing that the answer is right there above them."

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              Holla' If You Hear Me!!!

A Quick Word to my "Minions"

 Well, howdy there, little minions! I hope you are enjoying the beginning of your weekend. As for me, I will be right here all day, off and on. Yes, it is Saturday and I am at home, making sweet love to my air-conditioner! Temps in the upper 90's tend to drive me inside. I am just thankful that the AC is working!

 

            Ok, this not drinking is really putting aa strain on me. I don't consider myself an alcoholic, but I do love my beer. I had a few last weekend, and that was the first in a good long while. Ok, I'll stop whining, nothing can be done about it anyway. Whatever. Now then, where was I before I got side-tracked? Oh, yeah, my minions.

 

               Not much to tell everyone. I am working on a "special" knife. This one will be only for me, and will be a one-off thing. I will only make ONE like it. When it is finished, I will put a picture of it here for all to see. This may take awhile, as I intend to push my design and building skills to the limit, just to see what I can come up with. Have a good weekend, and be good little minions! (or not!!!)

 

                    Holla' If You Hear Me!!!

The Last Man on Earth...

....To not own a cell phone! And, I am proud of that fact. I hate cell phones. Why? Because I am slowly going blind, and I cannot see the buttons on them! "Go get some glasses" you say? I did. Within six months they were no good.  I can't use them anymore, they just don't work. Or, actually, it's my eyes that don't work. And, vanity, thy name is me! I hate to pull out a pair of glasses in public!

 

            Then, there is the "dummy factor". The odd little quirk that says if you are doing something and don't want to be disturbed, the phone will ring! I leave my house so people CANNOT CALL ME! Why in the hell would I take a phone with me? That's just stupid. I am not a doctor, lawyer, judge, whatever. I am not important enough to carry a cell phone. It's just a waste of money.

 

              I have had people tell me that I am "afraid" of technology...excuse me? "Afraid of technology", I use a computer. I have multiple game consoles in my home(mini computers in their own right!), I even understand the technology that makes new cars run. Did you know that we are no more than five years away from cars that "drive by wire"? Believe me, I keep abreast of nearly all of the tech that I can. I am STILL waiting for "wet-ware". Brain implants that make you smarter, muscle implants that make you quicker, stronger, better. I want to be "wet-wired" now! I would say that makes me more "tech-friendly" than most people. I just don't like cell phones, that's all.

 

                         Holla' If You Hear Me!!!